Farhan´s Adventures in South America

The time came when I just had to pack a bag, and go.. why, or where exactly I didn´t know, but Lima was as good a place as any to start... and so the adventure began...

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

This blog is being laid to rest...

It seems that my thirst for sharing, and contributing, in the world hasn't ended - but alas, my ability to keep up with all the different streams of thought, and ideas have moved me on from my travels through Peru.

I've now moved this blog into my blog at http://life.magitam.org.uk. There you can find out the latest adventures that I've been pursuing, and also start to get an appreciation for more of me, as a being. This includes the side of me that is a little more technology oriented. In time, I will find a home for the spiritual side of me, within that voice, or perhaps a new one.. For now, all I can say, is that I've moved on from this blog, from this home, that was home, during my travels through Peru. I am most grateful, for the chance that I had to share through this medium, and platform, and look forward to sharing more with you, of my life, and adventures, at my current blog, called simply Farhan's Life. See you there!!

Thursday, July 21, 2005

Thursday 21st July - She calls me closer...

So since the last post.. a lot has happened...

Originally upon returning to Iquitos, I had plans to go to Brazil. On Tuesday morning, I knew exactly how I would travel, and where I would go, and Wednesday morning, I was getting ready to leave.

How naive I was... Before leaving Iquitos, I wanted to meet a person whose contact details I had been given - a Howard Lawler, a man who organises spiritual Ayhuasca journeys, as well as journeys through spiritual centres.

I was very clear that I didn't want to take part in an Ayhuasca ceremony, having met many friends along my path that had walked this path, and I declined all opportunities to participate. I had also been real sure, looking at Howards website (http://www.biopark.org/peru.html) that there wasn't any journey that I wanted to participate in, that was being organised. Besides it was too expensive, and way beyond any budget I had left.

So Tuesday afternoon, I was going to meet Howard for lunch, chat about something, but I didn't know what, and then get ready for a boat to Brasil...

Yeah right!! Like I really have a clue about this journey anymore....

After 4 and a half hours of 'talking', I was sure in the very essence of my being that I was going to spend 20 days travelling this sacred path that was part of the journeys organised from the 25th of July, till the 14th of August. This included spending ten days in the jungle working with the Ayahuasca, and ten days on a spiritual pilgrimage, culminating at something akin to "Heavens Gate".

How I would be able to afford the $3500 dollars, and how I would be able to manifest so much money, in cash, here in Peru, by Friday morning were questions that my body didn't seem to be worried about... It just knew with a certainty that this was a journey I had to take, and I was going.

I spent a day sending out emails, asking people for help, mainly friends who had said if you need money, email us, and we'll help you out... and it seemed that there was no-one there who was able to help. Eventually, everything unfolded as it needed to, and now, sitting in the Internet cafe, I'm waiting for the transaction codes for two Western Union transfers that should yield the full total amount that I need, to pay for the trip.. the shortfall made up with cash I have to hand, and access to, through the support of people who've been able to make small contributions.

Then, in half an hour, I'll meet Howard, go to Western Union, get the money, give it to him, and then it disappears into his bank account, and I'm all signed up!

Then on Monday I meet the group of people that I will share a most powerful and intense cleansing and healing spiritual process. I know that on the other side of this my physical problems with my swollen leg will be healed, and I know that my health will be at an all time high!

It's real funny, because, just as we were finishing our chat, with Howard, he mentioned he'd worked with Channel 4, and that's when I learnt that Howard was a man who I had seen on tv, in the UK, the day that I couldn't decide if I should go to Peru or Mexico. I asked the universe for a sign of where to go, and switched the tele on. Finding Extreme Celebrity Detox (http://www.ginger.tv/content/default.asp?page=s2_3_22) on E4, I saw Howard Lawler taking 4 celebs into the jungle, to take ayahuasca in Peru. Seeing that I knew that I should definitely go to Peru... I just never realised that the universe was showing me exactly where I would go, who I would go with, and what I would do there as well...

Howard's contact details were given to me by Susan Bookman, who I met during my visit to Inti Ayllu, a spiritual community in the sacred valley. And it turned out that Howard knew Don Americo Yabar really well too, and his local contact to co-ordinate activities in Cusco was Don Americo's daughter Arilu... I just knew that I had just completed another circle, closed another loop.

The fact that when Howard had spoken to me, he had described all the steps that I had known I was going to go through, before I would be 'whole', and that this journey addressed all those parts that I was consciously working with.. it was too perfect.

Now, once the money is sorted, I'll be going into some quiet space, and start preparing myself mentally, and emotionally for what will be a very pure and complete experience. Even reading http://www.biopark.org/peru/shamanrisks.html allays potential fears, and re-inforces to me the real integrity, and completeness that I would have never found if I had gone looking, but that I am ready, I am encountering.

This moment I am really keenly reminded of that old phrase 'when the student is ready, the master appears'.

I can't imagine it being any truer than now...

So July 25th, I go into the jungle, and then on August the 14th, I finish a journey, with more news...

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

July 10th - 17th

It seems I spend too much of my time online writing my blog, and so I've decided I'm going to try to be a little more efficient for now!

That said, my journey down the Mazan was wonderful... As you can tell I've returned from the river, and as far as I can tell, I'm still travelling solo!

It seems that my journey down the river, whilst interesting, and educational, served to show me that I still wasn't ready, and that I need to spend more time removing from my perception all limitations, that lead to irritation. This was exemplified in the very real example of the mosquitos that regularly had supper using my skin as their table, and my blood as their food.

Fortuantely, I had the tent from my friend Chesman, to sleep in, and so wasn't bothered so much at night. Even whilst on the river, the insects weren't a problem. It was only when we arrived at a camp site, that the insect fests happened. And I'm pretty sure it had something to do with the way that the locals would just leave their trash everywhere that they didn't need. If before coming to Peru, I had thought the Amazon was a place that was pure, clean, and unpolluted, I was wrong.

The locals have no hesitation throwing anything and everything into the river. From plastic bags, and plastic bottles, to the plastic wrappers from crisp packets and biscuit packets, to the disposable forks and spoons. It seems people seem to think that the river is an ok place to dump things, and so I'm sure that the levels of pollution will no doubt all contribute to some huge social environmental crisis one day.

That said, in the actual forest, once we got into it, was beautiful, and the plants managed to keep a balance, that meant flies, and insects weren't a problem.

However, there was also a real absence of any animals at all, in the little bit of the forest I visited. And the only birds we spotted were hunting targets for the locals, who had convinced me to pay for the hire of a gun and ammunition.

In spite of the environmental stuff - the people we met throughout the journey were testimony to how the warmth and welcoming home can be found anywhere even in the middle of the jungle!

After using the motor (peke peke) to go upstream, and after a number of 'incidents' with our motor, on our return journey (4 days into the trip), we ended up eventually losing total use of our motor, and had no choice, but to 'float' back downstream. Apparently, floating along the river was a very normal way to travel, as we had seen people doing it downstream, as we went up. Whilst the pace was slow, and gentle, we managed to travel day and night, and had some wonderful night skies, full of stars, and the growing moon.

Eventually, after returning to Mazan, I took a quick trip to Iquitos, to get some money, to pay for the remaining balance of the motor rental, boat rental, and to pay the three locals who had accompanied me throughout the trip. Javier, Gayle and Mauro.

However, I didn't have money for the trip to Iquitos, and trusting Javier to sell the remaining gasoline we had, he ended up with enough money for the two of us to head back to Iquitos, in order for me to get more cash, from the ATM.

Upon arriving into Iquitos, we got in a motortaxi to the Plaza de Armas, and I discovered I didn't have my wallet in my pocket. Sure that I'd brought it with me, Javier, suggested we rush back to the boat, as he thought I might have dropped it on the boat we had taken. Back at the port, Javier rushed ahead of me, and tired from all the travelling, I decided to wait for him up top of the stairs. He came running back, grinning, showing me that he had successfully found my cash cards.

Telling me he had paid the captain 10 soles for thanking him, I naively believed him, and we went back to the plaza. I guess with no cash being in the wallet it wasn't of much use to most people. But it got me thinking that Javier probably knew the pickpockets there, and managed to find the one who had picked my pocket.

Anyhow, as things were to unfold... that evening, I didn't manage to make it back to Mazan, where I had paid for the night in a hotel, and having missed the boat, I came across Javier, at the port, waiting for me. He said he'd been waiting an hour, and when I asked him why he hadn't taken the last boat home, he said he'd waited for me.

Then the stories started to come out... from being told that he was 'solo' and had no family or brothers and sisters that he had any contact with, he started telling me that a woman who was like a mother to him was in the hospital, and the 50 soles I had paid him earlier that day to settle the bills he had paid in the hospital, and that he needed more money.

Clearly, he had just bought new shoes, and some CD's, and I'm guessing that the 'mom' was fictional, but not wanting to be cruel, I said sure no problem... later...

He kept wanting me to give him 300 soles so that he could pay the other two amigos who had helped out during the travel. But for some reason I didn't trust him, and said it's ok, I'll pay them myself. And I'd also bought presents for each one, that I wanted to give to them personally, and I wanted to thank them for all their hard work. Since throughout the whole journey Javier had been sleeping, or chilling with me, and Mauro, and Gayle had been doing all the work, packing and unpacking the boat each night, driving the motor, cooking the food, making the tents, and doing anything else that needed doing.

We ended up going to the house of an uncle of a friend of Javiers in Iquitos, to spend the night, after he initially had told me that we could spend the night at his house. I ended up spending 10 soles, what I would pay for a hostal, as a token of thanks to the uncle, as well as spending another 5 soles on thanking the friend, giving him 2 soles for his travel, paying another 10 soles for drinks for Javier, who had told me he didn't drink the first night I met him - and there he was drinking...

Despite spending triple what I normally spend in an evening, for room and board, in a house that I wouldn't ever have paid more than 5 soles, if I were to pay, I ended up sleeping in the room, whilst Javier took the hammock in the living room.

Then, half way through the night, I hear Javier in my room, asking me for more money. Telling me his uncle had just come, and his mom was ill, and needed more money for the hospital. He kept pleading, asking me to help his mother, how I should help him to help his mother, how he didn't like to have her suffering... After about 10 minutes or so, I decided there was no way I had a choice, and seeing it as charity, I ended up giving him 40 soles, even though he only asked for 30, and sure that he was lying.

The following morning, I found that my wallet was 200 soles lighter... the 200 soles that I was to pay the other two guys had been taken out of my wallet.. I only had one suspect in my mind. Upon telling my host, the uncle, he told me how he didn't feel that my friend was being sincere last night, and suspected that he wasn't being honest with me. Javier had apparently left at about 12 or 1 am, and was no where to be found.

On the up side, I had the nicest cooked fish in ages that morning - and even though it was the most expensive breakfast I've ever had, I was glad that it had happened. For it confirmed my suspicions, and I somehow had guessed that I was going to have trouble, and had slipped 200 soles out of my wallet, into the inside pocket of my bum bag, where I kept my passport.

It's clear there was no-one else who knew exactly where I kept what money, and only Javier had ever seen me use my wallet, including my zipped pocket in the wallet where I kept my larger notes.

Lesson learnt, when I confronted Javier back in Mazan, he claimed that he wasn't there during the night, and that it must have been someone else.

Tired of his lies, I pretended I had no more money to give, and invited Gayle to return to Iquitos with me to get some cash. Once Javier was out of the picture, and Gayle had come to meet me in my hotel room, to go to Iquitos, I confided in him, and asked him how long he had known Javier. He told me he hadn't known him long, and confirmed my suspicions, when he told me that we never paid any money for the fish that we had eaten during our journey. Even though Javier had taken 20 soles to buy fish, we had traded a flour snack for the fish, and I had seen it all.

I ended up giving Gayle 100 soles, with some extra to bring Mauro's 70 soles payment upto 90, and Gayle kindly offered to assist me to the port, regardless.

The sincerity of Gayle and Mauro, and their strong work ethic made me want to thank them more, but having lost the money I'd withdrawn from the bank, I had no flexibility in my generosity beyond what I had, and figured Javier had taken enough money to pay for everything that I wasn't going to buy his complaining whining of 'how am I going to pay for everything?'.

Leaving Mazan, I arrived in Iquitos, checked into a cheap hostal, and slept well, after visiting the uncle, who I had gotten quite fond of!

Monday, July 18, 2005

Sat 9th July - Prepping the Journey

Get woken up early to speak with a man who owns a motor. Pay him 70 soles, since he needs to pay the mechanic 50 soles to get his motor back, and give him 20 soles as a deposit.

I also get introduced to an 'amigo' who will be joining us for the journey. Gayle.

After paying another 20 soles, we get a boat secured. We pay for gasoline (320 odd soles), buy supplies (70 odd soles), and by then it's already 2 or 3 in the afternoon, and Javier tells me we'll leave tomorrow, early in the morning. Happy to wait, I suggest we at least go and try out the boat and the motor, since I wanted to see what it looked like, and how big it was - and also to start getting prepared mentally. Riding to the place where the boat is docked, we get the motor onto the boat, and take it out for a spin.

The boat was tiny - with three seats, front middle and back, and as we're making our way back in, thinking of needing space for at least one more person, (my princess) I ask if we can't get a bigger boat? And as I say that the perfect sized boat floats in, and I question, can we get something like that?

Well we end up getting the very same boat that I'd spotted, and with news that we can have it from 10am the next morning, we call it a day.

Later that evening, I walk into town, and end up meeting a 'mechanic' called Chesman and his friend, who has seen me getting ready for the trip, and wants to be my 'guide' for the trip. After explaining the nature of my journey, I discover that the mechanic had seen me, and had wanted to 'connect' with me, talk with me, without quite understanding why. The more I talk, the more he understands the 'heart connection', and how there was just something about me that drew him to me.

Before leaving, he insists that I take a 'gringo' tent that he has, and Chesman promptly goes to his home, gets the tent, and then even shows me how easily it assembles, and disassembles! (doesn't take more than 5 minutes to put it up, and it only has two flexible poles that come apart), and slide into the fabric, to act as a support for the structure.

Impressed, I make my way back to the hotel clearer than ever that this is a journey that is completely guided, and everything is happening exactly as it needs to unfold!

7th,8th,9th July

Evening of the 7th of July, it turns out that I spent too long on the Internet, updating my blog to be able to get out of Iquitos in the evening, and reach Mazan.

Instead I ended up finding a hotel for the night - 10 Soles, good deal.

On the morning of the 8th of July, I decided to make sure I get to Mazan - so by 2pm, I'm at the port Productores, and find a 'Lancha' - a slow boat that's going down to Mazan. 2 and a half hours later, I arrive in Mazan, and getting into a motortaxi, get taken to the 'centre'. Finding the cheaper hostel a little too cheap for my taste (what with no en suite, a single bed, and a room that had thin wooden walls that didn't reach the ceiling, but touched the floor), I decided that 10 soles was too much for so little, and moving onto the Hostal Municipal, discovered that for 2 soles extra I would be able to get an en suite (meaning shower and toilet - nothing fancy though... just a room with a loo and a sink, and a shower head with a metal rod sticking out of the wall to turn the shower on and off with..) and haggled my way into a 'Matrimonial' suite which meant a double bed too, for the same price!

That evening I fished around a little for some clues as to what to do next, and ended up finding a bakery selling wholemeal bread, after dinner in the market. Attracted by the wholemeal bread, I started to buy some, and as things go out here, I got talking with the lady of the store, telling her about my 'vision' and quest.

She ends up suggesting a fella named Javier, who get's tracked down and brought to the Bakery store, who sits down with me, looks at my map, hears my story, and agrees to be my 'guide'. Asking him straight up how much it would cost, he kindly offers to come with me 'voluntario' - which I figured meant he was happy to come along for free.

That evening, I went to bed, knowing that in the morning, once we had our transport sorted out, we'd be on our way to the point in the Mazan that my map was showing me was where I should be...

Thursday, July 07, 2005

Pictures from Peru

I leave you with the website of a friends(Kathleens) photo gallery, so that you may see some of the things that I have seen in Peru..

http://journeywithoutdistance.smugmug.com/gallery/589309/6

http://journeywithoutdistance.smugmug.com/gallery/589309/7

4th - 7th of July - return to Iquitos....

So on the morning of the 4th, we wake up, and decide to get breakfast on the way to the federal office where we can get our visas into Brazil.

Getting lost on the way to the Federal office, we eventually, end up buying some juices, before arriving at Immigrations, where the Austrians gain their entry stamps, and I get my entry and exit at the same time!

On our way back to the hotel we find the place that Sebastian had been looking for for breakfast, and buy some of this fruit that's meant to be a real brazilian specialty. Upon buying it, it doesn't taste quite like anyone expected, and becomes a gift to whoever picked it up off the street!

Buying a coconut, from which we drink the milk out of, we get back to the restaurant where we ate the first day, and have our lunch. Then, back in the hotel, I pack, and take the guys to meet the shop owner who I bought sandals from.

As the rain starts pouring down, I rush back to get my things packed, before too much time passes, and decide I should start heading over to Peru now.

Walking all the way down to the river, I don't see the Austrians anywhere, and loathe to leave without at least saying goodbye, I decide to go back up, and see if I missed them somewhere. They end up coming out of a shop, and seeing me, make their way down to me. I suggest why don't they come over to Peru for a bit, and so we all get the taxi boat together. There, we meet our boat, that is getting ready for it's return journey, and the Austrians end up joining the crew for a game of footie (football/soccer). Watching (since I'm too tired to join in), I think back to how slowly time has passed, and yet how it seems like it's been such a long time knowing all these people, even though it's hardly been a few days. Sebastian, and Joachim, especially have faces that remind me of people that either I know, or they have faces that I might have seen before...

Anyhow, after the football, and few beers with the guys from the ship, the Austrians head back to Brazil, and I set up my hammock in the boat.

By 7-30pm, I'm ready to unpack my things, and head back to Brazil, as the Immigrations lady hasn't arrived and the boat is scheduled to leave at 8pm! Fortunately, she arrives, just as I give up all hope, and I get my entry visa, as well as a bite to eat, before the boat leaves!

The next two days and nights get lost between the books I was reading, and the conversations I had with the crew. I had become a familiar face to many of the crew, and having spent the time to talk with them on the outward journey, they weren't shy and readily came upto me, and started cnversations - felt good - more like family, than a passenger!

As it turns out, I think my spanish might have been misunderstood, or the man collecting money for the tickets felt overly kind towards me, but I ended up travelling back to Iquitos on the same ticket that I had come out on. Saving myself an extra 40 Soles. That more than made up for buying an expensive hammock on the first day!!

Today, 7th of July, at about 12am, in the morning, we docked into Iquitos. Loathe to leave, I decided I'd sleep the night in the boat, like a few others had. In the morning, I made my way into town, with express purpose of getting my Webblog upto scratch, and for some reason I wanted to phone home too...

It turns out that today, in London, some bombs went off bringing fear and some panic to the capital. From what I've been reading... the strongest most constructive response to any violence, of any kind, is to be that much clearer in the light, and in the unconditional love, and to use it to reflect back to anyone that considers harming you the choice of the path of love, or the opportunity to destroy themselves with the amplified return of their own hatred, and fear.

The moment anything is experienced, and held as an emotion, it gains power, and so I stand strongly in this moment, spreading out and reaching out with my vision of a world of peace, love and harmony, holding it more strongly, returning the light ever more brightly, to those that would try to bring anything less than into my thoughts, feelings, or consciousness.

As long as I hold myself clearly I have seen my path out here in Peru unfold so clearly and effortlessly, it's unbelieveable. And in completing this vision, I hold that possibility out to you too dear friend, and brother.

Think of nothing but peace, talk of nothing but love, and see nothing but light, and then all your thoughts, words and visions will be filled with a truth which no-one will be able to deny.

I now leave this weblog, so that I may continue my journey up the river Mazan, into the forest, to meet the woman who is waiting for me.

With her, I shall return, and share my news with you all. Till then, may your prayers be filled with nothing but positive affirmative, constructive thoughts words and deeds, and may you too see the same light of the new dawn shining out brightly from the heart that is aflame within.

In love and light to all that read this... I wish you the highest vision of self that you can see - for you are perfect, and complete, if you only knew...

3rd July - Three countries in a day!

So we arrive in Santa Rosa at about 11am, and get our 'exit' visa´s for Peru. Then we get a water boat taxi to take us to Brazil - to Tabatinga. There we don't find any immigration waiting for us to enter, and so we end up, after getting a few drinks of beer and cola (them and me!) to check into a hotel that a visitor from Switzerland recommends us, as he sees us in the street.

We check in, and I end up tagging along with the 3 foreigners who I had been following since we left the boat together. They had all gone ahead of me, and I followed them, as they seemed to know where our passports had been taken, and then seemed to know how to get to Brazil. It turns out Sebastian, Florian, and Joachim were from Austria, and they had travelled the river down to Iquitos from Ecuador, and were heading to visit a friend in Brazil, in Sao Paulo, after visiting Manaous.

I had originally planned to visit Manauaos myself - but deciding the journey would take too long, I had decided against it, and was planning to return to Peru the next day. As it happens, the Austrians were more than happy to share their room with me, and so I didn't really pay for much during my time in Brazil. Especially since they seemed to have the local money, and I didn't have anything but Peruvian Soles at the time.

I decided to go and buy some sandals, and in doing so, ended up spending over two hours chatting with the store keeper, who insisted I sit, and have some refreshments, as we talked (mainly repeatedly going back to the large shoe size I had, amongst other things!)

Well, returning to the hotel, I couldn't find sight of my Austrian buddies, and so went lookign for them. I first thought they'd have headed to a local place to eat, but I didn't see em anywhere to be found. Eventually, talking with a lady who served me some cheese and potato pie, I learned that there was celebrations happening that evening in Leticia, the next town down - and me being me I thought maybe they might have gone so far as there!

Getting onto the back of a motor taxi (read motorbike, with empty passenger seat behind!), I daringly ventured into the 'festival'. Upon arriving, at the Fiesta of San Pedro (a hallucinogenic Cactus!), I learnt that I had crossed into Columbia, and that Leticia was in a different country to Tabatinga, where we had our hotel.

After looking around briefly, deciding that there's no way that they would have been able to come all this way, alone, without leaving me a note at least, I decide to return to Brazil, and when I find the Austrians, to bring them along to here. The stage seems packed, with the audiences filling all the rows, and watching the performance, I'm sure they would appreciate it.

Returning to the hotel, with the same motortaxi, I arrive back at the hotel to find the Austrians playing cards, since clearly there doesn't seem to be anything to do in Tabatinga that evening.

We all get ready, and go to the fiesta for a few hours, in Colombia, and return back to get some sleep by 12 or 1 am the following morning. It was really beautiful seeing the fiesta, because everyone was joining in. Whilst you had whole groups of people standing around, as you'd expect, there'd be spontaneous acts of dancing by old people, as well as young. But most beautiful to watch was the older people... they had a grace and style, that did justice to the festive atmosphere, and reminded me of how in latino cultures, there just isn't the age difference in the same way... The old are as agile as the young, if not even stronger spirited even!

That night I slept well, tired from the travelling, and festivities!

1st July - 3rd of July Travel to Brazil

I get a taxi to take me some place to eat, after checking out at noon, and find unable to eat much - just feeling sickly from the heat.

So I get in a cab, and get to the river. There, a 'helpful' local gets me everything I need for my journey to Santa Rosa, the frontier of Peru, and ends up assisting me in buying a hammock, a lunch box, spoon, toilet paper, and water....

Turns out I discover in Brazil that the hammock was about half the price had I bought it in the market in town... but it get's balanced out in the end!

That night, the boat finally leaves, with me swinging in my hammock, unsure of what to expect. I spot a group of three foreigners travelling on the same boat, and as much as I am drawn to go upto them and start talking to them, I end up spending the bulk of my journey resting, or reading these books that I borrowed from Kathleen. ´Life and Teaching of the Masters of the Far East' by Baird T. Spalding (If you can I strongly recommend buying, and reading the 6 volumes of this set of books that were published back in the early 1900´s - I'm sure they are the truth behind books like the Celestine Prophecy!)

I also manage to arrange to have as a guide for my journey a man who hangs from a hammock beside me. We agree to meet on the same boat, on the return journey, and so I'm set for my travel upto the Rio Mazan.

Two days and two nights later, we arrive in Santa Rosa, on the afternoon of our third day... as you can tell, I've lost track of time here... According to my passport, we left Peru on the 3rd of July!

Sun 29th,30th June - Iquitos

Sun 29th, flight leaves at 10.55 from Cusco. On the journey to the Airport, Cousin Willy stops at a store where I can buy a hip bag - as somewhere to keep my valuables safe.

Then, at the airport, after checking in, I go buy some breakfast, and some cheese for my journey... Returning to the airport I bump into Billie, who's on her way to Porta Maldonado, the Jungle, but in another direction. We get chatting, and I also meet her artist friend, who insists I look him up upon my return to Cusco.

We chat some more in the waiting lounge, I again share my insights, and learn of Billies, before I have to head off.

I get my flight to Lima, and then to Iquitos, and before I know it, I'm there... it's so hot!

I check into the Hotel Internacionale, and spend the night resting.

Mon 30th June The next day, I spend the better part of the day lazing around the room, watching movies in English with spanish subtitles. Deciding to get something to eat, I eventually get to the Tourist office, and get directions for local transport. I decide tomorrow I have to leave, cos the heat is sweltering hot, and it's pointless walking around Iquitos. Not least because of the noise of all the motor taxis!

That evening, I get my stuff together, and decide that in the morning I leave!

Sat Jun 27 - Sun Jun 28

Sat Jun 27 - Today I end up booking my flights to Lima and Iquitos, as I've decided that I don't want to take a bus to Lima - as it would take too long... I had to travel on the 29th... dunno why... but it just seemed the date I had to travel!

In the evening, back at Kathleens, I set Kathleen up with an Addressbook on my website.
Her friend Angel, who performed her Ayuhuasca journey with her comes round to visit, and joins us for supper.
In the evening, we end up watching 'What Dreams May Come', with Robin Williams - a most timely film, if ever I could imagine a more fitting moment to see such fantasy, and adventure come to life!

That night, I sleep like a baby!

Sun June 28 - Today, I just have to get to Puma's house. It feels like it would be wrong to go to Iquitos without at least spending one night there. Intent on leaving early, I end up running errands, until it becomes 7pm, and by the time I get to the house it becomes 8-30pm. Spend a little time with everyone, including the Baby, and with Puma who returned from Canada today, and with my flight set to leave tomorrow morning, I spend a bit of time packing only things for the warm jungle weather, leaving all my other clothes at Puma's house for when I return.

Sun June 26 - Rest and Relaxation


Scott comes in the morning, just as Kathleen finishes up with a friend who has given her a tarot reading. We all end up together in the kitchen talking for a while... all exchange valuable knowledge, and as Kathleens friend leaves, Scott starts my reiki session, whilst Kathleen works. Then after me, Kathleen gets her Reiki session. We have lunch, hang around talking a while, and then end up going out for some Mazamorra. (as you can tell time passes real fast!)

As we eat Mazamorra, I meet Puma's aunt, and say I'll try to go visit her tomorrow. We end up visiting a South African lady who runs the Gringo Hostal, and organises San Pedro journeys. We have a chef from Lima who prepares some food for us, and then get home tired - as usual.

Sat June 25 - cooking Indian

Morning comes, we head for the bakery for some breakfast, after sorting out some things on the Internet. After a few hours of having one of those 'deep and meaningful' conversations, we head off for our errands, and bump into a friend of Kathleens, who starts telling Kathleen all sorts of Visa things she needs to know... I hang around, and end up asking about my visa, which is when I learn it's best if I leave the country to renew it, and get a 90 day visa on my return. Rosie, Kathleens friend asks if I can cook Indian food, and before I know, I'll be cooking dinner tonight, missing Barry before he leaves for his flight, I end up getting back to the house, and Kathleen goes off to get some supplies... tired, I end up resting till she returns.
After guests start arriving, and dinner is only partially cooked, Rosie lets on that she used to be a chef, and reminds me of the altitude difference, which makes cooking slower. Dinner ends up being a group effort, with the many people that Kathleen invites as all coming, and helping out. After dinner, we chill, and Kathleen shows everyone the pictures of her travels. Once everyone else leaves, Scott is left washing up in the kitchen, and we end up chatting along more spiritual lines... We leave it with Scott to return tomorrow, and provide us both with Reiki, and late into the night, get to bed!

Fri June 24 - Return to Cusco

Fri 24 Jun - I get up early, say good bye to everyone, and end up getting a train to Oyllantaytambo. The lady who had stopped to give me a huge smile turned out to be 'Billie', and as she saw me at the train station, she came over to talk to me, and we just 'connected'! It was wonderful - I switched places with her friend Barbara, and we spoke for the whole journey, never once noticing the time go by. They were also returning to Cusco, and were going to pay for a taxi, so I joined them.

We first went to Inti Ayllu since I'd left a charger there - but it seems I was to miss Susan who had possession of it, locked in her room. So we got back in the cab, and went the distance to Cusco airport, where Barbara and Billie would fly to Puno. We had lunch, after checking them into the airport, and as they returned to the airport, I checked my emails. I met Kathleen on my way out of the Cybercafe, and get her keys to leave my things in her apartment, whilst she went to dinner with a friend. I return her the keys, and go off to try to find Barry who was also returning to Cusco later today. No sign of Barry at his hotel, so I leave a message and return to Kathleen's flat.

No Kathleen either. Just as I'm leaving, the lady frm the flat below, Jane, appears, and she happens to have a spare key for Kathleens place, and lets me in... Waiting in Kathleens flat, Barry calls, and we connect... We arrange to have dinner, and I leave to meet him. It appears that Kathleen returned just a short while after I left, and after a tired evening, since both Barry and I have been waking up early and sleeping late, we have a light supper, and both return to our respective beds. It was pretty late!

Thurs June 23 - Macchu Picchu

Get up early in the morning, as we want to get an early bus upto Macchu Picchu, before it fills up with too many tourists. End up getting up there after the sun has risen, but it's light hasn't reached the ruins, since they're so high up. We start by walking through the ruins, towards the other mountain Wayna Picchu. We decide as a group that we'd like to go to the Temple of the Moon which is like the heart of Wayna Picchu first, and then spend time in Macchu Picchu.

The bus makes the ride upto Macchu Picchu easy - but walking from Macchu Picchu, up and around Wayna Picchu, is a real adventure (I guess I forgot to read the sign that said not to attempt the walk unless you had a good level of health!) Well after losing the rest of the group, and being supported by Vidal, who at times was my walking stick, as well as my safety rope, I managed to get about half of the way round, and decided I'd not go any further. I ended up sitting on the steps, and encouraged Vidal to go on, saying I would wait for the group to return, and would return with them.

Three or four hours later, the group starts coming past... I'd almost given up hope on them... but decided to carry on waiting. Whilst waiting, I'd met some wonderful people giving mostly smiles, and some coca leaves, to a few that seemed really to be struggling with the height.. There was one lady that even stopped to look straight at me, and shone a smile directly at me...
Eventually my group returned, and I made my way back. I had fortunately had a wonderful view straight at the back of Macchu Picchu, but I'd more importantly developed a patience whilst waiting... expectant, but not rushed for anything. On the journey back, I managed to slowly but surely get there.... last as usual! The rest of the group was returning to town, to meet Freddy, their Shaman from Chicago - but I was too tired to move, and decided I should stay a while here, and then spend a bit of time in Macchu Picchu since I wouldn't have time the next day. After spending perhaps another two or three hours in the ruins, meandering my way round, I end up leaving, getting back to the hotel, after spending over an hour talking to a lady in a spiritual new age store that happened to carry a banner of peace, as well as a Jose Arguelles Dreamspell book, and guide.

I have dinner alone, spend some time resting in the hotel, and end up getting to sleep quite late.

Tues June 21 - Wed June 22

Tues June 21 - Get back to Inti Ayllu, after a long night, and ready to fall asleep.
Wake up to find that it's afternoon.
In the evening, a whole group of Americans turn up unexpected. Martin and I get moved into the same room so that everyone can be accomodated.
Go shopping for food with Barry from the group... we turn out having a lot in common.
We end up cooking the food we bought, whilst the rest of the group is in Qorikancha, in ceremony. I manage to get the fire going... though with help and guidance from Carmen.

Tomorrow the group leaves for Aguas Calientes, the entrance to Macchu Picchu, and because I want to talk with Barry more, I decide I'll go with them to the station, and if I can go, I'll go with them.

Wed June 22 - Travelling to the train station, I realise I don't have enough money to pay for everything... but I decide to 'trust' and see what happens. As the americans are queueing up for the train, I try to buy a ticket, but find it way too expensive. Ready to leave them there - I get asked how much extra do I need to come? I end up being given money from each person, and with the combined total I have enough to buy a ticket there! They get on their train, and the Peruvian guides help me buy a ticket, and then get on their train, with me travelling on the train after them. Turns out there was a group of protestors on the tracks, and I arrive in Aguas Calientes just a short while after everyone else - even though their train had left Ollantaytambo over an hour before mine! I took it as a good sign for my choice of travelling. In Aguas Calientes, I end up with a hotel room sharing with Don Juan the Q'ero Shaman, and Vidal, the local Shaman, and decide to hold off returning to Cusco for tomorrow, as planned - so that I can spend a whole day at Macchu Picchu tomorrow - and in the evening I just go to the hot water baths, where everyone in their swimming costumes gets to clean themselves, and just relax in the open air, facing a mountain range, and the river that feeds the baths we bathe in.

Mon June 20 - 21 Welcoming the new year

So I took the resin/detox medicine back to Inti Ayllu, and with the requisite freshly squeezed orange juice at the ready, I took the tea with resin in one big gulp, and then downed the orange juice straight after. I'd already drunk a gooey liquid, in the form of a cactus (I think it was called Tonno, or Tunno), which reminded me of Aloe Vera, so not wanting to think about it too much, I just downed the liquid, and let the OJ wash away the taste. It seems I didn't have long to wait for the effects to take effect...
Within minutes, I was in the toilet, vomiting everything I'd had so far, and I'm sure a bit more.

Then I had to wait the 4 hours, before the diarrohea like symptoms were to set in, and start to relieve my body of anything that could be left in my digestive system. We were told we had to continue to drink hot tea, so that our insides wouldn't get messed up, and that we had to keep moving, to try to keep our bowels moving...

I tried the walking up the mountain, behind Inti Ayllu, but the thought that I may need a toilet, and the steepness of the slope made me choose the simpler path of walking along the main road.

After about an hours walking, and no significant change in my bodys willingness to give up anymore of its contents, I got back to the house, to find that Susan had eaten some food, and her body had started purging. I thought I'll try that approach... and so ate a full plate full of food. No luck. After spending an hour lying with crystals over my tummy to also help... no luck... It turns out, that by the evening, when we started to get ready to go to the temple for the all night fire, my body hadn't responded to the cleansing process.

Perhaps I had nothing left to cleanse, or perhaps I needed more resin... In any case, I decided that my body wasn't going to give me trouble, and headed with the group to the temple.

Once our 'group' had assembled outside the entrance to Oyllantaytambo, one of the guardians of this 'tourist' site, let us in, so that we could continue the sacred tradition of keeping a fire burning all night, before welcoming the sun in the new year.

After climbing up all the stairs to the top of the temple (and we stopped a few times on the way up), we began by gathering where the fire had been burnt in the past, and gave thanks to the space, before finding a new location, that we would be able to cover up, and where we would be able to hide the fact that we had burnt a fire. It seems that whilst the guardian was more than willing to allow us access to this sacred site, it was 'unofficial', and so we had to make sure that we cleared away all signs of our fire before the tourists started visiting in the morning. It felt a shame that Tourists had priority over the 'traditions' that the place had been built to maintain. It's almost like going into a mosque or a church as a tourist, whilst worshippers of that holy place have to perform their prayers in secret. Such is the way of governments that try to catch up financially with what little they have.


Anyhow, we have a wonderful evening, started by each person placing a log into the pile from which the fire will burn. Each person placing those things from the past year that they are ready to let go of, or have transformed.

Then, once the fire is lit, one of our group (a New Yorker, called Michael) is chosen to keep the fire burning. He's already familiar with the practice, having kept fires alive in the US, during native american ceremonies, and so it seems the perfect choice!

Through the evening, offerings are made, with k'intus (coca leaves) despachos (sacred bundles), and we keep tending the fire until about 3 or 4am in the morning. This is when we put a huge offering into the fire, for the Apus (the mountain spirits), from all the circle, for all of humanity. Wanting the Apus to consume the offering in private, we leave the fire, and walk away, allowing it to burn, unattended.

We then open a 'talking' circle, where everyone is invited to share anything that moved them, or touched them, or to even just talk, with the group, about their experience. We even get a few songs shared by people. Some traditional, quechua songs, some in spanish... Eventually, after everyone had shared.. people started to huddle under the blankets, and fall asleep. I had thought that it was a good time to return to the fire, as it would heat us, and as it felt like we should stay awake to honour that which we were doing. The fire, reduced to embers, was nothing more than glowing ash, but with some wood, and some fanning, we were able to bring the fire back into flames. And then kept it alive, until it was time to 'tidy up'.

Tidying up, we kept a small amount of the fire burning on a plate sized slate of rock, whilst the remaining ash, and embers were put out, and hidden behind big rocks, out of site, in the grass.

Then with our remaining fire, smoking away, we moved to a more prominent position, from where we would be able to see the sun, as it hit the first 'gateway' that had been built with the temple, to be able to see the progression of the sun through the sky.

Monday, June 20, 2005

Mon June 20 - Beginning a cleansing

On Thursday, I left Cusco to make my way to a place called Inti Ayllu. I didn't know anything more about it other than it was a community, and I wanted to visit before I left for Iquitos.

Well, after a few days of getting to know the main man Hermano Vidal, and Carmen, yesterday I met a whole bunch of english speaking Americans, including one Susan Bookman, who had replied to me via email, on behalf of Vidal.

This morning I woke up feeling like this is going to be a very special day. At night, we're going to spend all night awake, keeping a sacred fire burning, up on the mountain, to welcome in the new year (being southern hemisphere, it's a month earlier than the Mayan new year). But before I get to be a part of that, I've decided to undergo a cleansing process. This involves taking an oil/resin in a tea, and then spending 5 or 6 or maybe even 8 hours eliminating everything, from above and below, until there's nothing left.

It's meant to be very powerful, and I've just bought the necessary tonics... Now I'm heading back to Inti Ayllu, to begin... I'll let you know how it goes...

Saturday, June 18, 2005

Wed 15 June - Puma flies to Canada

Wake up early, to find everyone awake, bustling around..

Get ready, and find it's still early in the morning, and Puma's getting ready to go to the airport... End up riding along with the rest of the family to the airport... Seems it's a bit of an occasion, and the sisters, are riding along, as well as an Aunt!

I guess not everyone gets to go in and out of airports like some of us!

At the airport, I realise just how much of a novelty escalators are, as the aunts walk up the stairs, and the kids eagerly go up and down the escalators!

After seeing Puma off, we head back to the car, and everyone piles in again... we then become a bit of a cab, dropping people off on the way to the market, before we reach home.

When we're at the market, talking with Willy, (Puma's cousin I think?), I learn that typically when Willy was working as a builder he was taking home about 500 soles each month.. the equivalent of 100 pounds! Not much to live on.. and his graduation costs about 2,000 or 3,000 soles I think. Till then, he has to wait before he can graduate in being a tour guide.... Shocking I know! Boy do we need to change the planet if ever we needed to!

Tues 14 June - Baby comes home!

Today, Edy and the baby get to come home! So sometime in the afternoon, Edy and baby get picked up, and with a car load full, including grandparents, grand aunts, and yours truly stuffed in the trunk, we make the journey home!

That afternoon, Puma's room becomes a reception room for family, friends and neighbours, all eager to offer their congratulations!

That evening, I eventually get a coca leaf reading from Puma - and he clearly sees the trip to Iquitos, and it being a good thing... He also sees a whole bunch of other stuff through the coca leaves, including me meeting my 'princess' out in Peru! Another good sign, if I was ever short of them!

Mon 13 Jun - A Baby is born

5 am - Puma's son was born!

When I wake up, I find out that Puma's at the hospital with Edy (Edith his wife:), and that the baby was born that morning!

Thinking back, I realised it's an interesting choice of time for the baby... since it was literally only hours after I had found my 'destination' in the jungle, and it was only two days before Puma was heading off to Canada...

And to be there the day that the baby was born was reminiscent of the words of Elisabet, of becoming the godfather...

A short while after waking up, Puma returns to the house to collect supplies, and I tag along on the ride to the hospital. Unforunately, visitors aren't allowed in, until after 1pm, and so upon leaving Edy some Caldo (A soup for people who are ill, or need to recover their strength!) I get dropped off downtown, whilst the others head back to the house.

As I wonder the streets looking for an internet cafe, I hear bollywood music playing, and upon inspecting further, I discover that it's an indian style vegetarian restaurant, fronted by a shop selling mainly indian clothes. Upon asking, they happen to also stock Bollywood music, and DVD´s. So I end up after spending close to an hour to listening to a whole bunch of cd's, buying some bollywood music, and a DVD of Kuch Kuch Hota Hai, as a gift for Puma and Edy, for their new born...

Then I head off to the hospital, after a good few hours on the Internet, updating this blog...

Get to hold the little-un, and I'm reminded of my own niece Naba being born, and holding her the afternoon after she was born too... Reminds me of how special babies are...

Sometime later, perhaps even a few days later, I'm telling my story to Puma's mom, and she suggests maybe the baby wanted me to be there when he was born... I give up trying to know anything for sure anymore.. anything's possible in this crazy world huh?

After the hospital, we go to get some supplies, and I get to buy a whole bunch of outfits, and blankets for the baby... my gifts to the baby! Now I just need to find the perfect cuddly toy!

Sun 12 June - Path into the Jungle

Today, for some reason I decided to dowse a map of Peru that I had bought with a quartz crystal pendulum that I happened to buy a few days ago too...

So with the map open in front of me, I started to 'set' the pendulum for the yes and no responses, by asking questions that would give clear yes and no answers... Then I started to hold the pendulum over the map, on Cuzco, and we got a clear no...

Slowly moving over the map, I eventually found myself over the north region of Loreta, and found that over Iquitos, I started to get a 'yes' from the pendulum. Wanting to make sure, I moved in closer over the map, and suddenly the yes became a no... strange I thought.. so I kept moving and all of a sudden I found a yes response over the place called 'Mazon'. Focusing on Mazon, suddenly the pendulum started to swing directly over the Rio Mazon leading out of Mazon, heading north west...

Allowing the pendulum to guide me, I kept moving it along the river, until it went past the end of the river, and came to a complete stop. It just stopped moving. No yes, no no, just stillness. I figured this was where I was meant to head to. So moving out from the map, I decided to get a more aerial perspective, and as I moved further up, the pendulum started to give me a 'yes' response, again becoming still when I moved closer into the spot.

So, trusting my intution, I shared with Puma the location on the map that I was looking to travel to, and when I asked him if he had any way of checking it out, he suggested a coca reading on Tuesday - the day that coca readings are best made. Knowing how accurate a coca reading could be, having read about how Joan Parisi Wilcox had been predicted to share the knowledge of the Q'ero´s long before she had even thought of writing a book about them, I figured it would be a good validation, as well as providing me a little solace of spirit that I wasn't going into the Jungle blindly.